The End of Eternity.

These days.

It’s been about a week and a half since I’ve come back home. I thought maybe the summer would cheer me up…but that’s not the case. I do agree that I’m better than I was at college…I needed to get away from everyone who partied their troubles away. Drinking, smoking, drugs. I don’t want to need those in my life to get by anymore. I’ve been there. It was never worth wasting myself away just to have this so called, “good time.” What is the meaning of a good time anymore? I mean, the radio advertises these songs about partying, drinking, and clubs. Does everyone think that these are the only ways to have fun? Or is it because people want to fit in? Or do people really enjoy that crap? I’ve lost faith in the newer generations honestly.

…I also haven’t been in contact with anyone really. Everyone is either busy working or busy with a relationship. I would find a job, but I need experience. I would have experience, but I need a job. Stupid contradictions. So that’s one thing that’s on and off my list.

…As for relationships, *sigh*. It sucks being single. I’ve learned to hate PDA even more, especially in times like these. It’s like these displays of affection mock me. All these happy couples walk around happily while I grasp my broken iPod and change songs in order to ignore what’s in front of me. If that isn’t enough, I wake up from the surrealist of dreams. I dream of movie-perfect scenes with a perfect girl of my dreams (or well, pretty damn close to it) and its nice until I wake up. When I wake up, I wake up miserably. I wake up to no one beside me to wake me up smiling, or even to watch sleep, knowing she’s mine (kind of thing). I am missing that feeling of belonging or having someone, and I can’t do much about it. When I walk, sometimes I feel like I should have the hand of a lover in my hand, walking side by side, smiling like an idiot. I close my hand, as if holding someone else’s hand, but there’s no other hand there.  My heart aches a bit afterward.

I guess I’m done for tonight.

Well then…

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A Journey of Self Discovery with Shang.

leafarja:

thismarks-theend-xxiii:

Well this was pretty perfect.

So, that just made my day.

omg OTP

LOLOLOL

LOL i just read that whole thing i feel like it took me more than 10 mins

Bahahaha. Wow, did not see that at all.

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